breath

one breath away // meditation from my retreat journal // march 12, 2018 Tragedy struck amid attempts of quietness and rest Contemplation turned to consolation And grief replaced all hints of joy But the Peace that surpasses our human understanding came up beside us all In moments hallowed for the shortness of life A breath…

worthless

I have struggled with self-worth and identity for almost as long as I can remember. This issue of self-hatred is so prevalent today and though many claim that it is of God, just looking at the culture of self-hate and harm that surrounds us proves the opposite. This is exactly what the Devil wants us to believe. I am worthless. I can’t do anything right. I’m a horrible person. I am unlovable. I am a failure.

Let Go + Simply Live

I don’t like the thought of being controlled by anything but the Spirit of God. There are so many things that influence us constantly– so many people who have access and input into our existence. People who leave their fingerprints on our minds and manipulate how we live our lives. Spiritual forces of good and evil…

Simply Live: reset

Minimalism. Mindfulness. Simplicity. These are all catch-phrases in our day. Want to know why? Just read my last post and I think you’ll feel the angst that has proceeded all of our technological and industrial advances all too well. When you think back to the way God Himself created the world and where He placed…

Castles

we’re not meant to live in cookie cutter cardboard castles to stuff our faces with pre-made, pre-packaged plastic because we can’t face the life reflected in our mirrors our picture perfect lives lives without essence no dirt under our nails only dirt on our neighbor the one we call our friend but everything we do…

With a Heavy Heart 

Dear, sweet children of God, I write this to introduce something that has been constantly in my Spirit so heavy that I must speak out. It is a very controversial topic, especially among my generation…but know, that if you disagree with me on this issue, I once was in your shoes myself. But I have…

Tears and Trembling

Well, I cried in school today. I was just watching a lecture, as usual, and at the end they added a video testimony from mission work in Papua New Guinea. The testimony was so awe-inspiring– the movement in the people was truly God-given. Plus watching the scene unfold answered my question from a passage I…

From Failure to Freedom

This was one of my journal entries from the beginning of the week. I’m posting it here because from the beginning to the end, you can see God’s hand in my thoughts and life, revealing truth and error and coming to comfort me in time of need. It was too precious not to share for…

Unspoken Words: a response

Because most days in life I only get to nod and smile whilst dying inside //  These are some of my many thoughts on the subject of missions abroad vs at home I had a conversation last week and it got me to thinking (as most conversations do). I had just told this woman that…

#simplyplants

I’ve been struggling with this for a long time. Well, maybe struggling isn’t the word…debating? It was always just a little twinge in my heart that I didn’t want to open up and discover. I wanted to continue on in my ignorance. And if I know anything, I know that’s not right. That’s not God’s…

Live like it.

Is it too much to want a group of believers surrounding you? People you can call on for prayer. Advice. Leadership. Comfort. People you can worship with, laugh with, share your heart with– People who will listen when you speak and truly care… But will care about Jesus and your relationship status with Him even…

Wow.

These last few months have hit me like a tidal wave. I’ve been drowning in emotions more times then I would prefer to remember, have had so many “major” decisions thrown at me, and have experienced God’s hand in my life more vividly than before. I am so thankful for our loving Heavenly Father who…